The Oblivious 'ME'

I'll taste everything `coz i'll make it my last time around.
I have made that choice and moved on with good memories.
My optimism suffocates me sometimes. Being pessimistic compensates it then.
I have never done toxic drugs but many people assume I do.
I seem whimsical always but I assume that`s how I am supposed to be.
If you like or dislike me, the chances are that you don't know me well.
I have never cared too much about money.But I want some!
The most difficult thing to do is to stop judging people.
I read for 15 minutes a day and never made into IIT and then there was a hysterical outburst.
I failed in my Class 9 English literature, was whipped and couldn't stop laughing.
Prepared 80 marks for the semester paper in graduation. Attempted 78.Got 82.Laughed again!!
Children are a much happier lot. I miss my childhood passion for all the things and at all times. Named it 'nostalgia'.
Music has had too much influence on me. It taught me to love first and then endure betrayal.
I have stopped smoking now. At least a pack everyday. I hate it to be too amicable.
I am a wise drunkard over an ignorant teetotaller.
The strangest compliment that I've ever received is "You are brilliant". I wonder, if the brilliance ever sparkled.
Innocence gives me a better high than a cognac. And so I never gave it up.
I would have never been an "Engineer" if I was given a chance to loiter.
I know I have been a spoilt lad.But I`m not done yet.
The one thing I have most longed for sub-consciously is the 'guitar'. I wish I`d chord the strings in a cadence.
My biggest challenge is to become a worldly man with unworldly needs.
Most love stories are disturbing these days. I knew it and dared to love again.
I am sorry, I don`t like apologies! And then craved for it.
Its hard to forgive. Forgetting is even more questionable.
I rebuked my life knowing it could be devastating and too self-destructive.
I sat through Schizophrenic Psychosis. Later, hallucinations accompanied.
My story is identical to yours but in a different way.
I have had my most private moments with people around me. I loved my friends even when they complained.
This whole big world is such a small place. I met some and forgot many.
I have been happy & sad but only in my head. I've mostly been fake when I tried to be real.
I made that point & missed it myself. I knew, I ain`t a priest.
Every woman is a song. Sometimes I was choked by the lyrics, but I sang them all.
I'm as serious as I`m not. The cajoler in me says it all.
The worst thing that people say is that they don't have time or don`t own it!! I always cringe for more.
I`m always the first one to know if I'm wrong. Acknowledgement always follows.
I don't have an issue with anybody. It could just be a psychological gap.
Success & Failure are the most debatable words. I tasted both.
Sacrifice & Complains are bipolar words that are often used simultaneously. I sacrificed and then complained.
Nobody has ever won a blame-game. It`s always, because am not born lucky.
God must be a bored man. I often seek him with my problems rather than myself.
Anyway 'problem' is just an overrated and outdated word. I always stooped over the "solution".
I worked hard by not working at all. But it is not completely in oblivion.
If you've never been confused, you've probably never known a woman!! Have you given a thought on your evolution?
My biggest achievement has to be my stupidity.I was a part of it and even enjoyed it as a spectator!
I like it here and I'm not coming back. Change me for a change and I will be same again.
Excuse me! This is supposed to be personal. But I wont object when you read t`em all.
This is eternal and would go on!! This is how I am!! This is how I was!! Future is capricious.
This is the OBLIVIOUS me.....

My Wish

The end is near But I have lived it All

I wish I`d never escaped the righteous fall

A faggot toiling hard,

I wish I lived a life to cringe for a lot.

Time has been the greatest healer,

I wish I had a heart more rejuvenate.

Kindled with the divinity in me,

I wish I could have leapt time,

To be the person with whom I would have never whined.

I long to leave behind years and step in the year where I could tie the nuptial knots,

I wish I could have done that with a wink of any eye.

A coffee with renewed energy, a wine with a palatable taste,

I wish I could have drunk them all with her.

Think of the one person in the lonely times,

I wish I`d inked some words as an ode.

You weren’t God but you were the Healer,

I wish I could have worshipped her as my Knight!!!!

I always strive to understand her,

I wish I had cryptic methods to demystify.

With attributes so skewed, yet she is so simple,

I wish I had more acquainted ways to dwell with it.

The thoughts so stressful, with a feel so remorse,

I wish I always atoned for my wrong.

It has only been few days but appears like ages,

I wish I had your glimpse with a closed eye.

Desires, so tempting and yet so strong,

I wish I knew the way to dance.

A feeling so intense and baneful at times,

I wish I`d seen her always with a naked eyes.

Humanity, the word which masked my flaws,

I wish I gave the best of it until I perish.

A call which was made for a little while,

I wish it was there for the rest of my life.

I WISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!