The Oblivious 'ME'

I'll taste everything `coz i'll make it my last time around.
I have made that choice and moved on with good memories.
My optimism suffocates me sometimes. Being pessimistic compensates it then.
I have never done toxic drugs but many people assume I do.
I seem whimsical always but I assume that`s how I am supposed to be.
If you like or dislike me, the chances are that you don't know me well.
I have never cared too much about money.But I want some!
The most difficult thing to do is to stop judging people.
I read for 15 minutes a day and never made into IIT and then there was a hysterical outburst.
I failed in my Class 9 English literature, was whipped and couldn't stop laughing.
Prepared 80 marks for the semester paper in graduation. Attempted 78.Got 82.Laughed again!!
Children are a much happier lot. I miss my childhood passion for all the things and at all times. Named it 'nostalgia'.
Music has had too much influence on me. It taught me to love first and then endure betrayal.
I have stopped smoking now. At least a pack everyday. I hate it to be too amicable.
I am a wise drunkard over an ignorant teetotaller.
The strangest compliment that I've ever received is "You are brilliant". I wonder, if the brilliance ever sparkled.
Innocence gives me a better high than a cognac. And so I never gave it up.
I would have never been an "Engineer" if I was given a chance to loiter.
I know I have been a spoilt lad.But I`m not done yet.
The one thing I have most longed for sub-consciously is the 'guitar'. I wish I`d chord the strings in a cadence.
My biggest challenge is to become a worldly man with unworldly needs.
Most love stories are disturbing these days. I knew it and dared to love again.
I am sorry, I don`t like apologies! And then craved for it.
Its hard to forgive. Forgetting is even more questionable.
I rebuked my life knowing it could be devastating and too self-destructive.
I sat through Schizophrenic Psychosis. Later, hallucinations accompanied.
My story is identical to yours but in a different way.
I have had my most private moments with people around me. I loved my friends even when they complained.
This whole big world is such a small place. I met some and forgot many.
I have been happy & sad but only in my head. I've mostly been fake when I tried to be real.
I made that point & missed it myself. I knew, I ain`t a priest.
Every woman is a song. Sometimes I was choked by the lyrics, but I sang them all.
I'm as serious as I`m not. The cajoler in me says it all.
The worst thing that people say is that they don't have time or don`t own it!! I always cringe for more.
I`m always the first one to know if I'm wrong. Acknowledgement always follows.
I don't have an issue with anybody. It could just be a psychological gap.
Success & Failure are the most debatable words. I tasted both.
Sacrifice & Complains are bipolar words that are often used simultaneously. I sacrificed and then complained.
Nobody has ever won a blame-game. It`s always, because am not born lucky.
God must be a bored man. I often seek him with my problems rather than myself.
Anyway 'problem' is just an overrated and outdated word. I always stooped over the "solution".
I worked hard by not working at all. But it is not completely in oblivion.
If you've never been confused, you've probably never known a woman!! Have you given a thought on your evolution?
My biggest achievement has to be my stupidity.I was a part of it and even enjoyed it as a spectator!
I like it here and I'm not coming back. Change me for a change and I will be same again.
Excuse me! This is supposed to be personal. But I wont object when you read t`em all.
This is eternal and would go on!! This is how I am!! This is how I was!! Future is capricious.
This is the OBLIVIOUS me.....

My Wish

The end is near But I have lived it All

I wish I`d never escaped the righteous fall

A faggot toiling hard,

I wish I lived a life to cringe for a lot.

Time has been the greatest healer,

I wish I had a heart more rejuvenate.

Kindled with the divinity in me,

I wish I could have leapt time,

To be the person with whom I would have never whined.

I long to leave behind years and step in the year where I could tie the nuptial knots,

I wish I could have done that with a wink of any eye.

A coffee with renewed energy, a wine with a palatable taste,

I wish I could have drunk them all with her.

Think of the one person in the lonely times,

I wish I`d inked some words as an ode.

You weren’t God but you were the Healer,

I wish I could have worshipped her as my Knight!!!!

I always strive to understand her,

I wish I had cryptic methods to demystify.

With attributes so skewed, yet she is so simple,

I wish I had more acquainted ways to dwell with it.

The thoughts so stressful, with a feel so remorse,

I wish I always atoned for my wrong.

It has only been few days but appears like ages,

I wish I had your glimpse with a closed eye.

Desires, so tempting and yet so strong,

I wish I knew the way to dance.

A feeling so intense and baneful at times,

I wish I`d seen her always with a naked eyes.

Humanity, the word which masked my flaws,

I wish I gave the best of it until I perish.

A call which was made for a little while,

I wish it was there for the rest of my life.

I WISH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Back on the Streets of Heaven !!!

In the state of despair, I looked outside the glass,

Muffled voices and distant echoes screeched through my patience,

Hitherto, needless to say, I was agonizing again.

Ageless heart dawned at my threshold,

And all I wanted was to be back in your arms,

Calm, serene and tranquil where no feelings could escape.

Crumbling wounds and crushing-spirits were non-deterrent,

Just longed for the moment to have a glimpse of your countenance.

Back on the streets with a plight of speeding motorists,

Everything I lived for was left behind with each ponderous step.

‘Twas a walk to remember, or rather a walk for resurrection,

To palpate the nerves back to life.

Hope, faith, fidelity, fealty, devotion, everything felt so astute.

Was I ready to adorn the normalcy? Or submerse in the depth of frailty?

The crossword feelings were tossed at my heart’s pavement,

And I was just a juggler trying to bridge the sentiments for my survival.

Tears flowed and the resilience depleted,

Questioning, “Doth thou will ever see me again?”

Affection chuckled again when I heard you back,

And disdainfully hated me again for making you cry.

My boast of heroics a day before scurried swiftly,

And my heart cringed again for my timidity, trifled my stature.

Howbeit, I was ready to fight the oppression within,

And bestow upon you the most bedazzling part of our love again.

Nothing can mar the intent to spend a moment with thou,

Nothing can slay the abstruse feel of hallucinating with thou.

Life does gives a second chance, to be with you when not whine,

To show you the feel of our solidarity and affiliation again.

My acts have been scornful and to be loathed, sensing despair and pain,

But I will be back on the Streets of Heaven to feel it again!!!!

My Sweetest Chai

Let me exalt loud why I like her 
Cause she is the charisma and yet so real 
I love the way that she makes me feel 
If I am a not a reflection of her then I die because 
Her smile shines so bright I wouldn't lie 


I haven`t forgotten the very first day that we talked 
I found myself completely enchanted by her 
It's almost like, I learnt this lady from another life 
It maybe then I was her, maybe she was me.
Even things I don't like about her are fine with me 
Cause it's not difficult for me to comprehend her and she's so much like me 
It's truly my pleasure to share her chants 
And I know that it's Almighty`s gift to inhale the air she breathes 

How can the a woman make me so mad? 
I was clueless on what she did? 
Turned right around and made me so real. 
If she ever left me I wouldn't even be mad, no, but it would be sad, 
Cause there's a boon in every lesson 
And I'm glad that I knew her at all 


I love the way she leaps 
I love the way she weeps 
I love the way she hates me 
I love the way she treats her mamma 
I love that elevation in between her teeth 
I love her in every way that a person can love a friend 
From personal to fundamental, but most of all, it's unconditional 

You don`t have a hint what I'm talking about coz 
That's the way I feel, And I always will, 
There ain't no replacement for the truth, Either it is or isn't. 
You see the truth and it needs no proof, Either it is or isn't 
Cause she is the reality 
Now you know the virtue of it by the way it feels 
Because she is, yes she is 
My sweetest "chai". 

Sacred Sleep

Zonked, lost into the charm of an enticing night, heard the dogs bawl, while no birds chirped. 
Repugnant with a feel of utter Nausea, I wished I had a time of 'breathing spell'. 
Sloshed, with a feel so heavy, cursed everything which made it so dreary. 
It wasn`t a good day nor a good time, nothing so exalting and sublime. 
Got off the enchanting sleep in a wink of an eye, consoled myself with a deceptive lie. 
The broth was tasteless and so was wine, awaited earnestly for a soothing "clime". 
The clandestine thoughts were fading away, and my feelings inside were at fray. 
Tried enough to pacify the convulsion within, but soon seemed like an longing whim. 

Frustrated, fantasized about the past so great, and suddenly I had nothing to hate. 
Sleeping queen and her prince together, united, deep, we stayed in the cover. 
The start of a 'new mother' as we lay, her heart exhilarated on the bounty day. 
Gothic pain she had endured, she never cringed and was best assured. 
Close to her heart I did play, rolled my tongue, kissed her cheeks, as 'they' say. 
Inside, our love hummed to each other, we rose, we paced and then fell together. 
Dreamt of love, pain and anguish as one soul, we were joyous on the paltry dole. 
Clenched to her robe, away from the wily, she clasped me hard, hugged me slyly. 

Stepping back to the reality, deciphered-decoded myself, away from cruelty. 
Sensing the cacophony of a wailing whine, was no longer a complaining swine. 
All I hail is the 'Sacred Sleep', and never complain again of the grievous heap. 
Fluttered in whirlpool while in hay, night was gone, t`was just another beautiful day!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

Dawn of a New World !!!!

Away, Alone, Aloof

Got away into the distant road,

While the sun chuckled and the moon sighed.

Clouds eschewed from view,

And the stars were lost in the oblivion.

Longed for Apocalypse to woo away the breath,

And wished death awaited penultimate.

Sighed away from the tantrums of an agonizing life.

Dejected, Despondent, Depressed

Craved for the last feel of happiness,

Hated things and kept heart at bay.

Traumatized by the world around me,

Rode with reminiscence of the past so whining.

Estranged with the mundane occurrences,

I yearned for a perfect annihilation.

Slashed with a feeling of wound, cut more intense than with a knife.

Exhilarated, Exalted, Elevated

A child soaked in dust, while he played,

A vivacious life, even when the bounties were delayed.

Parched in the sun while his lips were dry

He never grumbled on the acute wry.

Coaxed and harped by the virtue of the situation,

I fancied for a ‘compos mentis’ phase again.

Shuddered, I guess I knew the meaning of ‘strife’.

Relieved, Absolved, Vindicated

Revamped by the feel of love, endurance and compassion,

I knew I had ended an abstruse feel.

Stepping into the ’Rial’, sumptuous and magnificent world,

I smiled back at the things which shone. Sensed "optimism".

The presence of things which seemed so occult,

Self-Introspection adjudged it to be the animate feel I longed for.

Smothered by past, real cognition taught me to tune a ‘fife’.